As I write this it's early on July 25, 2015. Yesterday Benjamin Monty Robinson, an (he's also called Ben Robinson or Monty Robinson)) RCMP officer, was sentenced to two years less a day in jail. He immediately filed an appeal, and I believe sought bail pending the hearing of the appeal. I've heard members of the publc comment about these bail orders pending appeals, the thought being that the accused is dodging the bullet, effectively avoiding their punishment by using the delays in the legal system. I have some long experience in these matters, both when I was practising, and since then, and have spoken to many persons indeed who have gone through this very process. I can say with certainty that rather than bail during either the initial process or the appeal serving to avoid the punishment, it in fact prolongs it, and extracts a very slow bleed that absolutely never stops. There is for the accused that constant hovering of the matter, never being free of it. The whole process comes to permeate almost every aspect of life. Even at those moments where times are good there is a half a breath away thoughts of what's going to happen next, when is this going to end, what will happen to me when it does end, will it ever end, how will my family be affected, how will I be affected, why did I do whatever it was that I did, how am I being branded with what I didn't do..... the chain of thought is endless, and rarely is it of a beneficial nature. It's distructive thinking, and it goes on and on, day and night. It never ever stops, even while one sleeps. With a great deal of effort and practise these thoughts can be tamed, but they don't ever disappear, and they are never far from the surface. The bail process is not one of freedom, not at all, including bail pending appeal. It's a sword hanging over one's head, with an absolutely constant reminder that the sword is there. It's part of doing the time for the offence, and the longer it goes on, the longer one does the time. The time on bail is a very quiet extortion of the soul.